Wednesday, May 28, 2014

Sugar and Dye

..and everything nice right? Since my last post I've had two doctors appointments and a procedure. 


I saw the fertility doctor on May 20th. It was then I had some reservations about my doctor.  Anyone who has had weight issues {their entire life} will know what I was told is not healthy. I am being sent to a weight management clinic {which I am excited about!!} to learn what my body needs and to get some help! I am super excited about this. However the bit of shocking news I received is my fertility dr wants me to loose 61 pounds. No problem right? Oh! In ***3*** months??? 

I've really had to take a step back emotionally from this and think about this process diplomatically. I want nothing more than to have a healthy pregnancy to have a healthy baby. I'm not so sure I care to stress my body out so much. It was then I decided to make long term health changes. Cutting out sugar and carbs, exercising daily, and making overall a long term goal, not 3 months, because I want to keep the weight off if I'm going to loose it. Not drastically cut it out to gain it back 3 months following.



Yesterday I had my HSG procedure. I've been on 48 hours of bedrest as the dye went somewhere it wasn't supposed to, and the findings found my left tube to be pristine and the right tube to be abnormal and blocked.  

This morning I received my hormone blood tests back which all came back normal so overall everything is looking really good.  The dr is set to review the HSG findings and get back to me by Friday. 


I think this process has been nothing but positive, in the sense that I have been able to find out what's going on with me to make me want to sleep all the time and to feel wiped out.  Making little changes has lead to big changes and I can feel a huge difference.  More than anything I have learned to follow my heart, and while this process is different for everyone, I have to follow my heart and listen to Gods direction, which ultimately may not be in the drs timing or ours for that matter.  Prayer has done our heart wonders and has lead our souls through storms we never knew we could weather.

Hope you are having a great week!
Rachel

Thursday, May 15, 2014

Waiting Game


The waiting game is not my favorite game.  Especially when it's been a month... All I can do is wait.  Still no visitor, so no HSG test.  With a negative blood test, were waiting to see if the Provera brings said visitor and if not we will take another blood test to see if there is a little one already present. 

While I've been waiting I'm currently up to day 7 on Chantix.  Tomorrow is quit day!  Very nervous and excited as I do not care for the feeling my feet have left the ground but excited to be done done done with these stupid things.

My glucose monitor arrived on Monday.  Poke. Poke. Poke.  Here we go!

My appointment is on Tuesday! More to come soon!

Rachel

Friday, May 9, 2014

Moving right along

Blood tests are fun! {no} On Thursday though, the visitor was still MIA and is still, so I went for a blood pregnancy test, which then returned negative.  Next week I will begin taking Provera to induce the visitor so I can get my chicken pox shot as well as have my HSG done.

The exciting news ahead, is today, I went to see my psychiatrist and we made a few changes and added a BIG change! 


This is what I have been waiting for, for two weeks! Luckily my insurance covers it so I feel very thankful as this kit is upwards of $500 big ones!  I've heard a lot of great things and a few horror stories but I am so excited so that usually helps with the side effects.

I'm not sure any side effects could be much worse than the episode I had last night through the night.  I bloated from the metformin and I felt like my skin was going to rip.  I stayed up all night chugging water and prune juice and managed to get it under control somewhat.  I tier up one more pill starting tomorrow and then it can level out in my system! 

I believe I'm up to 7 drs now so for fun here is the inside of some of the offices!  They're beautiful!




I have to take a moment to gloat though on my husband.  He has been an absolute team player with me and is not only cutting out sugar and gluten but also smoking!


Chat soon!
Rachel

Tuesday, May 6, 2014

Referrals and whining and referrals


Do you ever start walking on a rugged path and immediately search for smooth pavement? Yeah. That is me right now. Emotionally, on a scale of 1-10, I'll give myself a 6. {ok, maybe a 5}. Lots of news came this week. My ever so persistent "visitor" is M.I.A.  With that said, we are currently awaiting day 35, of which I will then either a.) be graced with "her" appearance or b.) I'll go in Friday for an "induction" of sorts to make her visit.  This has prolonged the start of the birth control pills as well as the HSG test, but I am learning patience. {while whining}

Today I had my appointment with my  advanced fetal medicine nurse for my high blood pressure.  To keep it {the complaining} to a minimum, the Dr. was extremely cold. She talked extremely low and I had to ask her several times to repeat herself, and she kept admiring my curves, in an awesomely judgemental way. {high five lady! Awesome super skinny metabolism} needless to say, I have documented my experience to talk with my fertile specialist to see if possibly I could speak with a dr that would keep the judgements at bay, quit repeating still birth over and over and actually sign on to help me with this battle, both feet in.  I do not need someone to tell me I'm overweight, or have hypertension or even diabetes. DUH! That's why I'm in your office. What I do need is a both feet in action plan.  I'm all or nothing and the nothing isn't helping. {end rant}

My next appointment is Friday with my psychiatrist to obtain the medications he can help me with maintenance to quit smoking for once and for all.  Truth is, big truth here, I've his behind smoking since I lost Madilyne.  In uncomfortable situations, I lit up.  Stressed?  I lit up.  Anxiety? I lit up.  I'm so over smoking and everyone telling me to quit but not offering help or solutions.  Trust me, I have to conquer this and for once and for all I have all the resources I need.  I HATE smoking.  It stinks, makes me feel horrible.  I cannot, cannot handle the mental detachment without medication.  I've tried, 13 times to quit, and I'm so over loosing my wits in the process.

The good news up and coming, I have an appointment with our fertility dr May 20th and a reproductive endocrinologist June 18th!  I've also been referred to an Internal Medicine physician for June 2nd to help me get this blood pressure down!!   I've lost 14 pounds already, and got my sugar down to 126!!!!!  Progress and only been on the wagon for 3 weeks!

I'm well aware this post is whiny, bitchy, whatever words you may choose to call it, but know I always look to the positive, this being if I am to carry our child, we want myself and baby uber healthy and that is what we shall have!!  

Ready to climb more mountains with y'all soon!
Rachel