Nervousness

I'm up. It's way past time for me to be sleeping and my mind is racing. A million thoughts a minute... The good the bad and the ugly.. Touché.

Next Monday can not come soon enough for my restless self. I need some encouragement that I am not insane to think this could happen. I've had a lot of contradicting feelings over the past week, not concerning whether or not we want to do this, but concerning how long and if I am crazy to purchase a few baby things.

My heart is telling me no matter the avenue we have to choose to being a child into our life, the blessings will come in abundance.. Kind of one of those leaps of faith we have to take in life, and choose to jump.

Jamie and I have talked quite a bit about timeline etc and I think the most important thing for us to do for me and for the baby is to take the biggest leap of faith we can and go for gold right off the bat. Many try all the different medicines in place to assist, however many do not carry all the emotional issues I have already. It's not an excuse it just a fact. Pray with me will you? My heart is in overdrive and it needs a bit of a vacation. 

More to come,

Rachel