Friday, April 25, 2014

The good the bad the ugly

Hello there!
Today has been a really emotional day. I have to be honest here to say I continually talked myself out of posting this, because my pride might be a little bruised.  Then I prayed, and you know, you can't go anywhere in life if you don't grow, so here I go.

We got the test results back today! There is a lot of good news that came back from these tests! Such as there are no issues what so ever with Jamie, my thyroid levels are spot on, I haven't had chicken pox, so I shall be vaccinated very soon against ever getting them, and I now know my blood type. 

The not so pleasant news, my AMH level is 0.61 {egg count}, and I have been welcomed with open arms into the early stages, slightly borderline of diabetes.  The AMH levels do not concern the dr too much, as with age it slowly declines, and with PTSD, and the stress with that, I am at an, ok place.

Was the diabetes a surprise? No. Let's be real for this, my mother has fought diabetes for many many years, and I haven't made the best of choices health wise with life often driving itself. There are no excuses. Just the fact that my A1C level came in at 7.6 which is a combined 120 days, which translates to eAG of 154. 

Less than one hour following the call with my doctors nurse, I had in my hand my newly prescribed metformin. I will start with 500mg 1x per day for 7 days, then tier up until I am taking 1500mg per day.

I have a pending appointment with an endocrinologist, and in about 10 days I will have my vaccine for chicken pox and we will have a 30 day wait time in which no fertility treatments will be given, to protect the chance of getting pregnant as that would be a horrible instance for the fetus.

The truth of the matter, I haven't wanted to change more physically than I do right now. The side effects of metformin have been, violent but manageable, and I am sure there is more to come. Operation healthy baby maker in progress!

I know I talked to so many today and I love all of you so much, and I know when I spoke with you, I may or may not have said I feel like I have failed. As you can imagine, he does not feel this way and has grabbed my face, kissed me about a bajillion times today, and assured me that this isn't the end, but the beginning of something super amazing.  

Now we prepare to move mountains!


  1. Keeping you in my prayers and may god bless you with a healthy baby very soon ... Hugs

  2. My advice if you can take the metformin at night before bed, cause it causes gut issues but less chance at night while sleeping. I had to take it for a while for my PCOS. You'll be fine :-)

  3. Rachel rachel rachel........ You my dear have been through so much! Now look at u and all that u have accomplished. I always wonder y God has to through us lil and huge obstacles all the damn time! Really? Y us and what do we do? We continue to raise above and somehow get through it all of it. Our sweat angels carry us through everything and they will continue to carry us for ever and push us. Keep ur head up mama and climb that damn hill thats in the way cause amazing things are coming ur way. Luv u lots :)

  4. I agree with Sadie. Only speak to the mountain! Father God says He will move the mountain for you! And, ask for healing and endurance with the meds.

  5. Head up Rachel... prayers and love sent your way always!

  6. I take 1,000 of metformin 2 times per day - every day - because i am insulin resistant. It has never bothered me in the least! Yes, I have heard the horror stories too, but it reacts differently to every person. You may not have a single issue taking it. Best of luck to you!